Previous Update

I see that my previous update caused quite a stir.  I did do it simply to avoid a punishment and honestly that's the same reason I'm doing this one.  Somebody asked me about Becky, she isn't doing formal girl classes for me anymore, but I think she has shown me something.

I see women as my inferiors.  It's what has gotten me in trouble time and again.  That's what makes my status so much tougher for me to take than some of the other girls.  Not only have I been reduced to the status of an inferior, but it was inferiors who were able to put me there.  I need to face facts and exist that women are my equal because it will not only keep me out of trouble with the mistresses, but it'll probably keep me out of trouble with future relationships and employers. 

I don't know how I can fundamentally change my feelings towards 1/2 the human race at once, but I will be working on it. 

Somebody asked me about primping.  It actually takes me the longest to get ready.  Makeup is a bit more difficult with Asian features, but I make up the time in not having to remove my body hair as often.   I keep hearing that my pouting just makes me look sexier.  I'm starting to believe it.

Summer

I'm still in dresses.  I know you've heard some of my situation from Katie.  I know that the main advice I get in my blog is to go along with things.  Jill has shown me there is wisdom to that course of action as she's in a much better position than I am in.  I just have this mouth the always seems to get me in trouble.  I would say that I have adopted the least to femininity of the girls and the main reason is that I have spent a lot of effort fighting it.  The wedding went OK, but it was just one of many dates I've had to go on in the last few months.  One of the reasons I don't blog much is I never know what to say.  I would certainly be willing to answer any questions you may have though.

Katie, Rebecca, and I

This weekend didn't go as I would have liked.   Friday, afternoon I received a visit from Sheila.  I wasn't thrilled when she told me to slip into a teddy and heels, while she got things set up for me.   I was already fully made up so I didn't have to do that, but returning in lingerie I was soon hogtied on my bed and a blindfold was placed on my eyes.  She put my Ipod on and the buds in my ears so I could listen to my "girly mix" for a few minutes before she starts having me describe how sissy I am, things I have done with Katie, and above all what I had done to get myself into this position and how I brought Katie into this too and lied to my friend Rebecca to get her help.  The blindfold was then removed and I saw that Sheila was no longer there, but to my shock Rebecca was.   She proceeded to chew me out for abusing our friendship and picking her education and career at risk.  I really did feel bad, but that wasn't the end of it.  She grabbed my hairbrush off the dresser and then gave me the worst spanking I've had in over a decade.  When it was done I was crying and she told me that she didn't know if her friendship meant much to me, but if it did I would accept that I deserve exactly what the girls are doing to me.  I was left on the bed stunned.  I didn't get untied for another hour and then I tired calling her, but I guess she was screening my calls.  I haven't talked to her since.  

Last night was date night for Katie and me.   Following a game of strip poker, which I won, but was still down to bra, stockings, and panties.  We had a major makeout session that involved us both giving each other hickies.  I had never done that before.   We spent the night in a rather uncomfortable forced embrace, but believe it or not we've had to do worse.

What to Do Now?

Last night was a difficult night of the kind that only the girls can inflict on me.   Aaron is being very rapidly feminized and it really is strange for me.  I didn't want this to happen to him as he only got involved to help me, but on the other hand, I've had to kiss him and act like he's my boyfriend so it's a lot easier to do those things with him looking like a girl.  He's a bit tall for a girl, but I really had know idea he'd look that feminine.  He's always been kind of scruffy so I never saw the real feminine features.

We watched a chick flick together where we had to kiss whenever the characters did--not easy, but worse was ending the day handcuffed together with the job of kissing the long lasting lipstick off of each other and having to make pillow talk because we were being listened to on a baby monitor.  When I complained to Sheila today about how difficult the night was, I got my next assignment--if I wanted to make it easier to kiss Aaron, I should buy him lingerie and a scent that would make it easier to lose myself in the illusion.  Great, now I'm looking to buy a little something sexy for my friend.  I haven't even done this for an actual woman ever.

Surrendering

From the blogs, you should know that I've been pretty rebellious since I got back from Christmas break.  I tried to bring a friend of mine into this at it backfired on me in a big way.  He's now my boyfriend and he is about the best boyfriend a sissy like me could ever have.

At all times, Aaron and I have to act in love.  Not doing so results in pretty swift punishment.   We've had to make out a lot, but it hasn't been very sexual so much as a lot of kissing, holding hands, and romance in general.   Last night, he stayed the night and by use of a baby monitor, they were able to ensure that we were engaging in pillow talk even if it went no further.   The girls have even taken to asking Aaron how I should look to be more attractive for him.  Dating me has cost him considerably too as we always go to the most romantic places.  We love each other very much.

This morning, I got up and took a bubble bath.  While I was shaving my legs, I started thinking about what I've gotten so far by resisting.   It does me no good.  I just wind up in deeper and deeper.  Mistress Colleen asked me the other day if it would be easier for me if Aaron was feminized like me too and we could be lesbians, but I couldn't do that to him.  I know Jill was given quite a bit of freedom after she stopped resisting.  That may be the best course of action for me.  I don't see a lot of other choices. 

To Aaron on Valentines Day

It's Been A Month

I apologize for taking so long to post.  Needless to say, I had some issues.  Following Christmas, I came back in no mood to resume this situation.  For now anyway, I'm agreeing to continue.  I've begun dressing again and serving as maid in my own apartment.   I understand the girls are mad about what I did as a TA and I understand that what I did probably was wrong.  Anyway, things have calmed down a bit.  I'm still shaved smooth and wearing what I'm told.  I've even gotten pretty good at doing my own makeup. I'm not thrilled, but I'll deal for now.

Christmas Break

Tomorrow afternoon, there will be an exchange of gifts and then I am going to go home for Christmas break.  I go without any supervision, but I go with a tough set of orders.  I need to return here with a dress to wear out on New Years and I've been told if it isn't satisfactory I will not like what is picked out for me.  I am also expected to take photos periodically when I'm home to show that I'm still practicing dressing up.  I am definitely looking forward to the holidays, but this does put a new wrinkle in things.

I think some of you have the wrong idea on Kristy.  She's definitely kept a watchful eye on me, but the orders come from Sheila.  Kristy just makes sure I follow them out in exchange, I have no say in what's on the television and do all the household chores.  I actually need Kristy though because she's the one who can cover for me if friends drop by or something since we live together.  I have a feeling I will be getting a ton of dresses and shoes and other pretty things tomorrow.

Yesterday's Shopping

Yesterday was payback for me not blogging.  We went out supposedly to Christmas shop and I knew that it'd be a bit embarrassing to be out dressed, but I wasn't wearing anything too outrageous.  I was allowed to go shopping in jeans.   As always we went to a mall fairly far from school to avoid bumping into people we knew.   What I didn't remember, was the mall we went to had a bridal shop.   The girls spent an hour making me model bridal wear.    They've put every sissy into bridal wear this way, but nobody else has had to do it at the mall. 

I'm not adjusting too well to this I won't lie.  Being a girl is not something I ever wished for and I've been taken so far so fast.   I'm wearing at least some feminine items 24/7, but this is just a lot to deal with.  My job hangs in the balance and yes, I guess I did take advantage of girls when I shouldn't have.   Seeing things from their point of view might even be good for me, but it's still very difficult.

Update

If you were wondering either what my Homecoming Dress or Mistress Kristy looked like, look no further.  I didn't go to the Homecoming dance as a girl, I went as a guy on Amber's arm.  However, there was a fancy Homecoming Dinner for the Asian Students Association and Mistress Kristy arranged for me to go.

We've all been so busy.  Halloween is a huge holiday for sissies I have been told and I know you've seen my costumes.  They were worn to parties and there was a lot of shopping and preparing as well.   That was followed by all this shopping and preparing for Homecoming.   I thought I was getting out easy until Mistress Kristy brought up the idea to Mistress Sheila.

You can also see my new breast forms.  I am a B Cup.   It's taking some getting used to.  When I first started wearing them, I'd look at myself in a mirror for a long time in disbelief.   Thanks to everybody who voted for me in the Halloween contest.    I'll be posting more now that that's behind me.  Unfortunately, we're into midterms so more may be relative.

Halloween

I have a lot of shopping in my near future.   Even though, I'll be going to Homecoming as a guy for the most part, I'm still expected to shop for and purchase a dress appropriate for Homecoming.   I also need to buy or borrow some Halloween costumes.  The problem is when the girls help me, I wind up having to model a whole lot more than what I actually need.  I still cannot fathom how I got into this spot so fast.  We're not just talking about girl's Halloween costumes, but sexy girl's Halloween costumes.   As for those of you like Amy, who think I'm getting what I deserve, no guy deserves to have to be turned feminine like this.

I'm Speechless

I had to post this.  I don't know what to say.

Things I know

Amber is a guy.  After several romantic kisses, I was a bit upset to find the truth out, but I never was angry at him--only at being set up.   Wow, I was very close with Amber obviously and never suspected.   What finally gave it away was knowing that there were other sissies.   When I knew to be looking for guys dressed as women, I noticed his voice was just slightly off and I explored what was under his sweater very quickly and found form.  He was really worried about how I'd take it and at the time I told him, I'd never allow myself to be put in that position, but thinking about it, I can't really say that for sure.

I did call Shelia to announce her jig was up and her reaction was to laugh.  She told me the others had found out much faster than I did and that if Mistress swore I was always borrowing her clothes and they had pictures to prove I was and lots of pictures showing what a natural I was, nobody would believe it wasn't totally my doing.  If you add to that what they have on me at work and all the pictures, I guess I am kind of sunk.  Sheila told me the price for her silence was to simply keep obeying as I have been.  They have kept the secrets of the other girls more or less I guess.  She also told me I would be Amber's date for Homecoming.

I won't lie.  This is scary.   I didn't expect this to last this long and it doesn't seem to have an end in sight.  I do have my limits though.  There are some things I will not be pushed into. 

Conflict of Interest

One of my jobs as a TA is to evaluate students.  I grade papers and have a huge effect on my students' grade in class.  I have no idea what to do about grading people with so much control over me.  They have told me to grade them like any other student and point out I haven't always been so ethical.  This just feels awkward.   My breast forms have been shipped and will be here soon.  Somebody asked before where I got them.  Try the Breastform Store.  That's actually what it's called. You can google it.  Mistress Sheila is getting irritated at my inability to do my own makeup so she's insisting I practice at least 1 hour everyday and of course she told Mistress Kristy so I will be timed.   Sometimes, it's not easy being me.

Mistress Kristy

I'm trying to figure out the new situation with Mistress Kristy.   I was able to talk things over with her and she didn't budge.  She admitted that I have always been a gentleman with her, but admitted her friends and acquaintances who knew we roomed together were always curious because there are rumors about me as a TA.  I would say, I probably need to be careful for my job anyway, but having lingerie on underneath my clothes pretty much guarantees that I'm on the straight and narrow.

Mistress Kristy warned me that She not only thought the punishment fit the crime, but had no problem using it to her advantage.  I will not only be expected to cook, clean, and serve as her maid, but deciding what to watch on the television isn't going to be a joint decision anymore.  Our tastes are actually fairly similar.

True to her word,when I got in today she gave me 45 minutes to be "appropriately dressed and made up" in a way that Mistress Sheila would approve of.   She told me, I still need a lot of work on my makeup.  When one of her friends came over unexpectedly, I wound up hiding in my room for an hour.  At least I didn't have to go in my closet, but I was scared that they'd come in my room.  They didn't.

Tough Shopping Trip

I am feminine enough that if I'm wearing a wig and a dress, I don't draw a ton of attention from a distance.  The key phrase here is from a distance.   We went shopping again today and Sheila had wanted me to get another makeover.   After feeling on display last time, I said nothing doing.  The result was that she made me shop without makeup on.   From a distance no comments, but when I would be close enough to speak with a sales person or to ring up my purchases, it was obvious that I was no girl.  As you can probably figure, I gave in and went for a trip to the makeup counter with the girls.  Amber didn't go with us this time and I was really missing her.  I don't think she would have been as mean about things.

Unfortunately, things went from bad to worse.  As we were unloading the packages from the car, the girls were teasing me about how sexy I'd look in my new clothes and I'd drive boys wild and what a sweet girl I was becoming.  At that very moment, my roommate was studying on her bed right next to the open window.  She heard everything.  When we got upstairs, she wanted to know what was going on.  If she ever believed the lines I fed her about experimenting with femininity, she sure didn't know.

Sheila and her friends sat down and discussed things with my roommate.  She has absolutely no desire to participate in this, but they explained things.   Two of them actually have sissies of their own!!!  I didn't get a chance to press this, but I need to find out more about these guys.  At least they seem to be dating their mistresses.  I thought this was beyond bizarre, but now to find out there are two other guys like me is extremely surprising.

My roommate, now addressed as Mistress Kristy or Ma'am warmed a bit to the idea and agreed to give it a shot on a trial basis.  She agreed that she wouldn't care how I was dressed and in fact, would monitor to make sure I was dressed appropriately and in exchange she would get maid service including laundry and cooking.   If anybody comes over to visit her unexpectedly when I'm dressed, I will immediately go and hide in my bedroom closet.  Basically, I'm a slave now in my own place.  After the girls left, I tried to talk to my roommate and she just told me to put on some makeup and then clean up the apartment.   I obeyed.  Hopefully, I can change her mind later tonight. The fact that she isn't interested in feminizing me gives me hope.

Last Night

Last night's date went pretty well.   I like Amber and she is hot.  However, I don't want to say too much since she knows I have to keep this blog.  She did say that she'd like to go out again, so I'll keep you a little posted.  In case you are reading this Amber, you are a great kisser and last night will hopefully be the first of many.

I came out to my roommate and I felt so embarrassed.   The girls had all the cards and would have left me dressed and tied up for my roommate to find if I hadn't given in.   She's now seen many pictures of me in dresses and she's seen me model a few things live.  It seems like it'll be cool as long as this stays between us.  She warned me about coming out of my bedroom in a teddy and heels if she has a friend over.   She at least agreed to try it and see how it goes.   Sheila told her that I'd be happy to do all the housework and she did like that part. 

I've been warned that the trade off for getting to go on a date last night as a guy is spending this weekend as a girl.  I guess it's a small price to pay.

Working Out

Awhile back, somebody had mentioned a work out outfit as one of the things I should shop for. I can't tell you how pathetic it is that even when I do something manly like working out, I don't look even the slightest bit masculine.  This was not a big work out day. I posed for a few pictures and went for a mile run with Heather and Sheila.   I've been given 48 hours to let my roommate know or have her find out about my dressing.  I can't believe it's come to this.  I know I have a lot of crossdressers reading this.  Have any of you come out to your friends?  How?

The Roommate

I've mentioned my roommate and it appears that this will be a huge bone of contention between the girls and I as they want me practicing all the time and my first priority is in her not finding out about my situation.  They want me to confess to her that I have always been curious about women's clothing and act like this is all my idea.  We'll see how this goes.  My roommate is not a romantic relationship.   I knew her from the Asian Student Union and she's nice enough.  We're both very considerate of each other, though I don't know how she'll feel about me modeling her clothes for pictures. I'm most concerned with her reaction and also it possibly getting out to friends of mine.

I knew this would happen

Today, I was told that in addition to having a modeling session for all the girls this week, I didn't buy all these pretty clothes to have them just hang in my closet.  When my roommate is gone they want me to dress up at home more often.  They have keys and they have told me they will be checking.   I'm really not sure how much longer I can hide this from her.   When I complained about how much shopping I had to do this weekend, even Amanda told me that we had just scratched the surface.

There is one good thing.  One of the girls who is in on this told me that she thinks I'm cute and she meant in male clothes not female clothes.   Her name is Amber and she's a red head which is hot and she's got a very nice body and a great smile.   I'm really impressed that she is able to see passed the dresses and I have asked her out for Friday night.  I am surprised to see that this has opened up a dating possibility for me.